What really triggers you?
Have you ever taken the time to look at your triggers and ask yourself why they have power over you? Why do things that people say or do influence your experience of day-to-day life?
It’s interesting to recognize that we have grown into a society that is largely shaped by individual and collective triggers. The reactionary stances taken by people in just about every public or social arena drive forward the dominant narrative of what is happening for the mainstream collective of the human species. When it comes to media, nothing sells better than scandal. When it comes to marketing, nothing sells better than fear. As a culture, we have even invented careers for people that want to be triggered as a profession. And apparently it is a lucrative business in the days when politicians gain or lose ground based on their trigger responses on Twitter.
But, why? What is so fascinating about people getting riled up? Who benefits from this?
In large part what triggers do is something that is seldom spoken of. Most likely because it is not a path to dominating peoples’ minds and choices, but one to healing.
When you are triggered by something, you are being given a golden opportunity. That opportunity is not the one that most often arises as a reaction. Because the one that has been programmed into you by this social paradigm is a form of weaponized grief. In this society, people are programmed to respond to something that triggers them in a fast, unconscious, attacking way. They are programmed to believe that the response to anything triggering is some type of violence, be it verbal, social, political, or physical. If you give yourself the time to consider it, why would this reaction be called a “trigger?” The only commonly known things with triggers that I can think of are used to kill. Specifically, used to kill people that are believed to pose some threat to your survival.
Unconscious responses to triggering events can cause as much damage as the physical counterparts they are named after. In fact, they set off everything from domestic violence, to hate crimes, to wars. The reason that people aren’t aware of it is that by the time their collective triggers have led to some type of violent manifestation they are usually already preoccupied with whatever the next triggering event is.
When we can recognize that the dominant programmed response to being triggered is a form of weaponized grief, we can step back from the response and start to look at where it comes from.
Your triggers are not indicating threats to your survival. They are indicating to you that there is a gap in your boundary. A puncture in your luminous body. Through that puncture you lose a bit of yourself every day. When you are not conscious of it, you may go so far as to create an identity around it. You may come to believe that that thing that needs defending in you is you. When that puncture is big enough, you may even start to take on the wounds of others in an attempt to find solidarity in being wounded. But none of this leads to the healing of the wound.
A trigger guides you to a puncture in your luminous body that was created at a certain point in your life when your sanctity, your sacredness, was transgressed by someone you trusted. From an energetic perspective, as children we are born into a world that shreds, or attempts to shred, our innocence from our earliest years. The unconscious complicity of those around us plays a key part in this. It is that same complicity which causes the wound, then reinforces the identification with it throughout time. The reinforced identification grows until it becomes a group identity. Sometimes the group identity grows to become an ideology. And over time, we have people so invested in their wounding that they want anything but to heal from it.
The gift of a trigger is that it allows you to track the wound back to its origins. To its root. This is the place where healing can occur.
On your way to finding the root of a trigger there is a whole journey in and of itself. Because, like certain roots, the part that you find at the surface, the triggering event, is only a part of the trigger itself. As you learn to recognize what circumstances trigger you, you begin to get a sense of what other similar circumstances you have been in in your past. You start to feel the similarity in energetic signatures of events, places, people.
The next step is to go through those events and reclaim the energy that you have lost there, the ways that you became entangled in the event and the story of the event that is associated with the trigger. We do this through a process called recapitulation. It’s a big word, I know, but stick with me for a bit.
Recapitulation is a way of disentangling your vital essence from the events in your past where it became trapped. Highly emotional events, like triggering events, are places where you have left parts of your vital essence entangled in the memory of the past. This is very much like soul loss, or susto in Spanish, except that it happens by degrees. It is not always associated to a major traumatic event, though sometime it is. Instead, it can accumulate over time.
Through a combination of a specific type of breathwork and a review of the events that carry the same energetic signature as the trigger you reclaim you entangled energy, your vital essence, from the event that entrapped it to begin with.
What happens as a result of this is that you reclaim your essence and heal the puncture in your luminous body. Which means that you will no longer have use of that particular trigger. Your identity will no longer be bound in the wound that kept the trigger in place.
This is a gift. Not only for you, but for the world.
When you heal a wound that you have been carrying throughout your life you change. Your behavior changes. The way you expect others to behave changes. Eventually, you stop expecting at all. As this happens you allow others to show up in free and fluid ways. The scripted responses and reactions that they are accustomed to receiving, which set off the cascade of dueling triggers, is replaced by an openness that is neither submissive or defensive. It simply is.
With each wound that you heal, you become more centered. This is because when you are walking around with open, untended wounds you are bound to others and the expectations of others. Like a marionette whose strings can be pulled this way and that, always pulling her off her feet as she struggles to regain a sense of balance and control.
That is not you. No matter how much you have been told it is. No matter how many people attempt to bind you into that identity.
At the core of all of us, in our integral nature, is a mountain of wisdom. The more you let your triggers be your teachers, the more you will remember that.